Sunday, January 31, 2010

Here we go...

It seems as though it has all been leading up to this...
As many of you know Zach, the kids, and I have been living in limbo due to a legal/custody dispute with the kids' father. This week, Thursday to be exact, we will have a final hearing. In all honesty I am terrified at what the results will be because I feel like I have no clue. Things went rather terribly for us in August at court and now I am on pins and needles until it is all over.
I know that this sounds terribly vague, especially if you don't know the details, but until everything is final, I don't know if it is in our best interest to "vent" just yet. Trust me no matter what the outcome is on Thursday I will be writing a novel I am sure over this ordeal.
Currently Zach is near Spokane,WA at survival training. So this means he will not be with me on the day of the hearing. My parents, however, have gracioiusly (and selflessly once again!) taken a pause in their interim lives in Kansas to be with the kids and I, and to continue to support us by being a constant presence.
As far as we know, the kids have no idea there is something coming up, and that is a blessing. Things have been so hectic in their lives with the confusion of moving, then not moving... I hope we can keep them shielded from this.
Our prayer for the hearing is that the judge will allow the kids and I to move with Zach in Abilene. This would allow our new family to live together and build our foundation and still allow there to be a close enough distance for them to maintain a close relationship with their dad. This situation makes me feel as if I am being torn in two. I am called upon to be a Godly wife and a Godly mother and not being able to be with my husband, hinders me from doing my best at both jobs. I need God's guidance and peace. I am very nervous with anticipation for Thursday. Please pray for Zach, the kids, myself, our lawyers, and the judge in our case.
I praise God in Heaven, for my amazing husband. Many men would've cut and run with so much tribulation, yet Zach stands firm as husband and father. He is a blessing and an amazing inspiration of the love God has provided to me through him. I praise God for the beautiful children He has blessed us with. They love fully with no reservations, we can all learn from that... My parents and sisters, mother and father-in-law, all of our family and friends continue to support us and I am thankful. Please pray for us diligently this week. Any words of encouragement are greatly welcomed. Thank you again...